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It is completely personal.
It is about my healing process. It is through conditioning that I am who I am. |
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My
paradigm
is determined by all my experiences.
From the moment I left the womb I started to gather information about the world. From that moment I went from one experience to the next. I experienced all human emotions. I was told whether I was all right or not. I met peers who responded to me and I to them. I met role models, whom I chose and whose qualities good and bad I integrated into my conditioning. From many sources I took certain behaviours, thoughts, ideas, verbal patterns etc. All the things I know, have experienced, have made me what I am right now. |
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But it's not working,
I am not happy
I do things that perpetuate a shortsightedness into my life. I do things that make people take a distance from me. I do things and say things that make other people feel hurt. I feel disconnected. My life unfolds, and I watch it and I feel disconnected from it. I am not fully a part of my own life. I have other wishes and desires, I want to break out I don't want to be bound down. I feel manipulated. I am not free |